A Journey!

A mirage to be believed. A rage full of challenges, struggle, freedom, thoughts, appreciation, happiness. What is Happiness? Where can we find happiness? How it can be achieved? Is it constant for the entire journey? Numerous questions arise to a simple journey. Well the answers might be imaginary thoughts to console the soul. A complete delusion to one-self for self-satisfaction. We, the humans always crave for that the happy feeling while unleashing the sadness. It turns into a furious soul. No one likes to be sad. Precisely, that’s the only feeling which remains forever. Trust me. Sadness has its own level of satisfaction. Be in love with sadness and understand its depth. It has got no regrets, nothing to worry about further, makes one-self a peace lover and lives like an achiever. When you loose hope in everything, there sadness plays its role to console the heart. In depth, we are all sad souls in search to be the greatest. Selfishness and greediness makes us a desperate soul. No wonder that’s the nature of creatures. Feed a cat, it shall still turn to your meal to lick the rest.

Wondering from where did life arise? Doesn’t everything seems to be hypothetical? This Universe is a continuously growing mechanism. Then why do we mere creatures exist? The most puzzled question in today’s time is ‘Which came first? The egg or the hen.’ Likewise the purpose of living creatures in this universe remains a mystery. Ages before there existed dinosaur which got extincted thereby with some natural phenomenon. It’s potentially believed that Everything has a Life and a Death in this period of time. Similarly, Creation and Destruction is inevitable. Then what led to the arousal of these human powers to think and analyse, predict and imagine, feel and stimuli.

If you ever get the chance to live your life again from the period of birth, Will you accept the proposal? Think Carefully.

Ask a Selenophile what makes him/her to admire the moon for all night long. Ask a music lover what gives him/her the pleasure to listen to the sound of flute and the beats of tabla simultaneously. Question out yourself how do you taste when you take the first bite in your mouth early in the morning. That’s the acquaintance of the moment. We keep admiring at things and people we like and love. It’s the nature of a living soul. Listening to the piano and playing your fingers in the air and accidentally one of your finger touches the other in a dark room with the lamp on; the shadow of those dark fingers playing along with the sound of piano gets us into the lyrical world.

Early morning when the blissful sun kisses the thick flesh covering you, the warmth and smile you feel in your heart just vibrant your soul. Similarly when the rain droplets touches those curves that makes you attractive, the sensation is of a wild nature. Your heart beats faster than the usual. The chaos in your mind deliberates for a fierce action to run by. You want to grab the moment to enjoy the extreme pleasure. That’s uncertain. When your feet touches the freezing water of fountain, your soul could feel all the love you left by in search of the undeserving. The raw feeling you carry each moment flows through your bloodstream and relieves all the anxiety that disbalances your state of mind. In this long run,we fail to cherish the moment and live it a whole.

Imagine understanding a soul completely. Just imagine!! And eventually you start liking it and gradually fall for it. Do you appreciate a naked soul? We all fantasize of naked body. What if I get benefited by your thoughts rather than your words; Will it harm any soul?

Virginity!!! What’s that? Sounds similar to a vagina. Maybe the word ‘Virginity’ evolved from me ‘Virgin’. In Latin, Vir means Husband and does gin means the last drink I had with my spouse. Sounds funny right. Yet sorry!!! I am being taken seriously (very very seriously) by men to judge a woman(s). Like I wonder ‘ Do I have the role to make a woman feel ashamed of her body rather than giving her some pleasure?’ I didn’t choose so. What if I’m broken or ruptured? Does it make any woman less valuable? Wait a moment. Why I’m always relatable to a Woman and not to ‘Men’? What gender do I impose? I don’t like to be personified. I have a voice. I can speak and make my own judgements. I believe in gender equality. Don’t men have penis like woman have their vagina to be shameful of.

Who am I? Where did I originate from? What’s my role in this Universe? Hello Everyone, I am Virgin. I get originated from foul thoughts. I smell dirty to adulterated men. I’m indecent, impure, immodest in character. I have mixed feelings. I’m a stain which can neither be repaired nor be cleaned. ‘I am being lost when a hard core ruptures an innocent, soft, delicate wall protecting the dignity of a female’, Dickheads think. My role is to make a living being feel and enjoy all the pleasure irrespective of its gender. My responsibility is to catch hold of that orgasm and feel pleasurable to survive. I play my role very well to pleasure the soul. I excite two similar/dissimilar genders from underneath.

I’m Sorry!!! I’m broken out. I’m ruptured now. I’m crying. I cry in blood. Yes I bleed a little. My tears are ‘RED’. Can you please wipe it? Does the stain went off? No!!! I lost to dickheads. I’m Sorry again. I’m a Stain. It was a painful experience . The way I was pushed back and forth, divided, torn off, ruptured. Trust me. I swear by the most precious soul to me. Believe me. I’m ripped to bleed. Why did this happen to me? What is my fault? Is it just to satisfy a dickheads soul so that it can fill its trash full of high proteins into me? Maybe YES. I think the actions were mutual. Then Why am I still being categorized as a female? I do exist in both of them. Both of them sacrifised their “treasures” to each other and summoned up saying ‘You lost your Virginity to me’ and not us. I’m being born in every dickheads who uphold themselves as the creator of the Universe. I’m being justified by those worthless minds. Yes they say it loud. I have got no dignity. I lost my earned respect. Like I mean, as long as I stand as a barrier, I deserve all the respect despite being a murderer or thief. They get rid of their horny thirst by rupturing my pity soul and say I lie in a gender called ‘FEMALE’.

Let me ignore all the dickhead’s thoughts for a moment and analyze ‘Where do I belong in Men?’ Like seriously Where! Does their penis skin ruptures or balls gets displaced? Nothing seems similar to Woman. So ‘Are Dickheads absolutely correct about justifying a Woman’s character?’ If the walls aren’t visible in dickheads then ‘Is it possible, Aren’t their thoughts rather be categorized as “Virgin”?’ These cock thoughts are dreadful, I must say. I see many relationships, beautiful bonds, mental health, life getting worse and end to death. I feel myself overpowering the Universe despite of its exceptional energies. Should I continue to rule upon? No, my heart says. If I’m empowered to a woman as a physical barrier, I won’t authorize in herself ; Neither I shall grow in dick heads. Well Dickhead isn’t a Man. These are the exact filthy overpowering thoughts of a gender.

I carry a whole lot of griefs in me. On the marriage night, I have been given a task. I’m being asked to bleed. If I fail in this test, I value no position in the family. I feel hopeless. Since I’m physically and visibly present in Woman, she looses her dignity and blamed so. Dickheads with their invisible acts continue to rule. You don’t know my terrifying story. To fulfill the deadly thirst of dickheads, I’m being chased by men to prove their masculinity; pushed and wrecked ; several times with great pressure; without my approval; sometimes just got ruptured by rods and hard substances to satisfy their orgasm. The very next day my flesh is found roadside lying by or my bones hanging to a tree. Very often if I’m alive, gets noticed in headlines, a few days later.I belong to a vulgar society now. I’m helpless!!! I belong no where. I deserve nothing if you misuse me. I have many more horrifying events. Please don’t judge me for getting ruptured or broken. It’s might be my destiny or was a mutual pleasure. I don’t want to conquer the flesh and bones, a female impose. I wish to be a beautiful flower like everyone cherish me.

I’m a girl who might have ruptured that slimy barrier by physical and sporty activities. I’m a woman who broke that mere wall for her past non-worthy relationships to her beloved. I’m an unmarried lady who decided to part all social chaos and think of self-pleasure. Neither female ever elaborates how their vagina plays by nor male speaks about their seconds of cum. If vagina looses her virginity, Does the blame game restricts only to a female being?

We fear to express ourselves to others; We easily get manipulated by words; We trick others to benefit us. Aren’t we fools or flaws we deliberately ignore each day? We appreciate fair skinned people without justifying their nature and personality. We deceive ourselves with outer appearances and blame others for the betray. When we point other’s mistakes ,remember the remaining three indicates you in return. We always know what is right and what’s wrong to be ignored. It just takes a span of minutes to justify. We are so accustomed with treachery and benighted. This makes us feel a zero with no value before Aryabhatta. It keeps bothering us if we keep gaining interest in those leachfull behaviour of others. Nothing can be tempted so easily. It takes millions of seconds to regain the best of you. It’s absolutely you who creates and destructs yourself with the worthless regards.

What if your cent percent on someone returns as a minor value? It kills all the expectations and desires you carry in your heart. The abject ignorance just turned the table. You feel a heavy burden and disturbance to others. This turns your mind to a annoying nature to barely enjoy the affability. Beforehand you disguised yourself to be an attention-seeker. This strikes you to achieve the red coin in the carrom game. In search of the richest you wrecked your own soul. Well it’s the nature of humans to get battered by their own thoughts and deeds. The deeds might be real and physical but the thoughts are very well created by you. You sometimes impose yourself to think a little more to grieve the pain. You feel minor. You feel diminished. How long will this immaterial thoughts last?

How long will you keep yourself awake in the memory of your beloved? If feelings are real and mutual, no one will abide by the unsecured feel. Actually our heart fails to accept the harsh reality of being ignored or deceived. No matter how much you desire of someone, nothing goes accordingly. Believe that the almighty had already decided the best suited for you. Your deeds and miseries are being counted on to punish you in the form of your thoughtful desire. You wish to lay all day in their dreams and visions ; yet gets unnoticed. That’s where your acts resulted in. You become a hard glacier again. Sometimes you melt as you never forget your principles ; while other times you stand hard and enjoy the thrust. Does it mean your own principles are your own weaknesses? You need to stand up again and fight back those irrelevant mistakes. What if a cyclone arrives and drives you off? Will any of your worries and thoughts matter anymore? Most importantly ‘Will you be remembered until your beloved’s end?’

Remember you being a kid. You used to plan out your daily schedules early in the morning. Suddenly Tom and Jerry plays on Cartoon Network and all your after plan of action goes in vain. What you recognized later just before a week for the exam was the ignorance for the remaining schedule. Well, that was somehow appreciable being a kid. Now, when you think of this moment,it brings a smile on your face. Isn’t it? Do you find yourself in the corner of a room wondering sometimes how to gobble up the last piece of pizza without worrying about its end. We worry a little more of its expiration than to realize all lies in you. What if humans get extincted, Will any of our flaws be counted?

You cover up yourself with thoughts that restricts you to achieve the blissful nature of you. Life doesn’t come with rules and regulations until you deepen your soul to unleash the introvert. A chaotic movement we fail to listen in this long run which can overcome the stressful version. But who would? Ignorance Prevention is better than cure is the substitute for this leading role. Let’s unfold all the chaos we carry deep inside each of us. It won’t happen all of a sudden. You need to diminish a little, argue a more, keep aside by yourself and burden the joy. Fight the undeclared battle; No one would listen to, keep up the little jesture of you to lit into a wild fire. We decide, We fall, We move. A straight line with your own hand gives you the strength to portray a little more. The measurements, the positions, the curves turns you to be an artistic value. You feel to remain unrecognized cause of the crowd that awaits for you long. You prefer to be on the backstage while enlightening your pure love to the world. Dear nothing can stop you from the preference you choose to stay. There lies a treasure in you!

What scares you the most? Your past or your thoughts to get intense into someone new. Don’t worry. Take a deep breathe-pause for a moment-unleash that unwanted worries that burdens your soul. We are Humans after all. We all make mistakes so we should even have the firmness to accept it and get things done. Circumstances play a vivid role in each of our lives..pause and think!! Sometimes we act mature while other times we are just a mere soul to think much. There lies our weakness. Sorry ‘Shall I say it an act with null thoughts of future consequences or rather to pleasure the body’. Mind and Heart is always at conflict . It’s their duty to confuse us. What should we start to think from? Isn’t that a very difficult question to answer.

According to me, the answer is NO. Let’s face it Today shall be my ongoing enthusiasm. You know the funniest part of human brain; We train ourselves with mere minds to believe that others can be shut down. Well we’re absolutely incorrect. Humans are brave Souls to admit upon. If we can accept the ruthless truth that Death is the only bed we can finally relax on; what harm a soul can do to the other. Triggering of one or the other hormones through inspirational/brave acts can enthusiast you. It just takes a moment of intense thoughts to act upon.

Likewise, I made the courage to unleash all the burdens, guilts, cons, lies to start something fresh. A ray of light rather. No, it wasn’t absolutely easy to do so. What goes around comes around , I strongly believe this. The world is round and so do our deeds. Don’t worry, I too received hateful comments and curses. But I don’t wish the same for them. I know my acts. Let them understand it later. No rush!! Obviously how long we should run. The return gits weren’t easy to be accepted; but who cares in this phase of life. I may never forget those sentences and it might bother me to disturb the present,yet I shall choose to remain silent. People come and go. No one chooses to stay forever. May be that’s the ongoing trend of this generation. Neither of us promised to stay forever,no soul connections were built,then why are those anger and hateful comments for? Did I do anything wrong or Didn’t the opposite person understand the future consequences? Everything happens for a better cause might be the ultimate bold line to relax me for now. I’m Sorry but not guilty. I chose my decisions and own them.

Everything in this universe has to come to an end. So does these mere ports do. It takes some courage and better analysis to act upon. I really appreciate all the valor souls who in their day-to-day life comes up with endurance to correct the blunder. Everything comes up with a reason. I took this daring step to make my present an honestful and lively moment. No one likes to live a lie. So do I… Yes I even understand the chapters that encloses in my life. If you get to analyze its beauty,cherish them no matter good or bad. Atleast they came with a lesson as a return gift. Remember I said No one chooses to stay forever . This beautiful loving present of mine won’t even last long. Should I cry or leave this as we aren’t destined? I accept this and being an ‘enlighten soul’ I choose to live the present to cherish it my entire life.

Life is an epitome of a book. There are several number of chapters with a moral and hence every story has its ending. So, Start appreciating each and every moment of it. Be it bad or good, never harm any soul. Yes it’s obvious to make mistakes but it also must be corrected in time otherwise you might miss the golden opportunity to breathe wholly the beauty of the present.

I choose to live the present. Likewise dear, you just need to analyse and with correct determination move forward. We all have flaws and I appreciate it. These scars, broken hearts and mind, patience are all those which gives us the strength to love more unconditionally. How’re you? Just going with the flow might be almost the million answers amongst the few billions. These happens when you are just so tired of betrayl. You fear in each phase of life but gradually you choose to accept the destiny. Nothing is permanent in this universe to be appreciated long. Every thing comes with an expiry date. Wait a moment. Am I really bothered with the fearless act of mine or it’s just that i need a break? If so,please do the honor. You carry an oceanful of mixed feelings in your heart and survive each day. Hurrah!!! You won the moment.

Trust me, I didn’t spend much time on choosing the site/title name. It just took me 20 minutes to get into my mind for the best to get better. Kidding!!!

I think we can grow much better if we move aside our past success or rather throw it in the trash to boost us later. I won’t say for permanent deletion as you are the only key of self support. I may sound like a complicated soul. Well, you may guess me right here. Complicacy lies in every being. It takes the right thoughts to dig the best of you.

Sorry Sorry.. I just got diverted from my ‘enlightened title’. So long back (not ages bro) I decided to start writing.. Well I did it with pages and pen. As days passed by, pages turned into trashes to be thrown. With no ideas where to begin, what to type and make you feel more bored of me… Wait a minute, Did I really make you feel bored? If yes, you can wait for my next write-up; If no, hearty welcome to my mindful pocket.

I’m a very lazy person and so you can understand why did I start so late. Well I shall not waste your time with my scribbled thoughts.. Let’s pause it for a moment!!

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton